Welcome to my blog, also known as my safe space! My name is Shanee’ Wilson. I am a 34-year-old wife, mom, woman of God, and business owner whose life was suddenly changed with the devastating news of cancer. In January 2017, I was diagnosed with stage four non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma cancer, which was by far the most painful, trying, and challenging journey that I have ever been through in my life. Not only did the disease break me down as a human being, but the power of cancer and chemotherapy had me mentally and physically convinced that I was dead while alive. Some may read this and find it hard to believe, but for my fellow cancer community out there, you know exactly what I am talking about. I literally felt as if I took a long nap in 2017 and just woke up on the other side of the pain.
Call me naive if you must, but I had no idea of just how powerful cancer was, which is very surprising for me to believe personally. I say this because cancer runs in my family. I have personally witnessed several people with cancer in my lifetime, but never truly understood the impact cancer had on their minds, body or soul. Now don’t get me wrong when I say I was completely clueless about cancer, because one thing I did know was that the disease was very dangerous. So much so, that five people in my family within my lifetime have died of cancer. While their roles were very significant to me being people like a grandmother, a grandfather, or an uncle, none of them ever shared their experience with me. Specifically, how did they handle the pain or how they were able to get through the days they had here on earth? Therefore, when I was assigned my journey, I knew that I had to share the behind the scene details that people don’t usually discuss as a cancer patient so that I could provide an in-depth understanding of what people like us are suffering through.
The environment that I’ve created is much needed for cancer fighters, survivors, and supporters that know someone battling cancer in their lives. Truth is, the person that you know with cancer is using every ounce of their energy to fight. So, doing things such as explaining in full detail how something may make them feel or for them to clearly articulate their needs, exerts way too much energy at that very moment in their life.
Therefore, I started this blog to share my knowledge, my journey, the ups, and the downs so that each and every one of you can understand exactly what we experience. Many people believe that because I have been cancer-free for four years now that my journey is over and life can resume as normal again. Truth is, my journey with cancer will always be a part of me. My experience with this disease was so excruciating that it took me four years to be able to articulate exactly how the darkest year of my life made me feel. Four years!
As I start to dive in and post content in my safe space, you will better understand the challenges we cancer patients experience, how drastically our mental health has been affected, and the fear of cancer returning that never seems to subside. This blog is not intended to make anyone feel sorry for me or my journey that I was assigned by God. This space was designed to provide other cancer fighters with hope, help provides loved ones with a better idea of what “support” looks like in the eyes of a cancer patient, and give any and everyone a better understanding of what someone like me has gone through.
I have to be honest with you all in informing you that I am not a copywriter for a living, nor do I claim to be in any way, shape, or form. So, if you are looking to critique my writing style or point out my flaws, this blog isn’t for you. This blog is intended for those seeking understanding, a helpful friend, and someone to help you discover faith through the fight. I am simply a cancer survivor who has been appointed by God to share what I think, know, and have experienced and to show others that there is always something they can do to help. So, I encourage you to share your experiences, provide feedback or even post questions because together we can bring light to the darkest of hours. So, buckle up for some uncomfortable topics, behind the scenes feelings, and intense never before heard thoughts because you are in for a bumpy ride!
Stay tuned and God Bless…